Confession: I'm starting to realize that I need to be loved by someone who would never hit me, not even during sex. I spent my whole life being abused by many different people. I want the person who would never hit me to be the man that I am in love with now but I also want to make him happy. I know he's really into rough sex. I can never bring myself to be rough with him. I wish he could understand. I love him, I am tired of walking away from love with bruises.